hello. today's post will be a little whiny. i get the blues easily and i guess that's why i'm here now. i feel completely left out by them. even though i still can feel that they cared for me, but they never involved me in anything like they decided everything and me..? they just tell me their final decision at the last minute. so, i ain't that good enough to get involved? ahh~ it's too complicated. just because i can force a smile doesn't mean i'm happy, and just because i can fake a laugh doesn't mean i'm okay.